Whispers In The Mist

Have you forgotten
all those times your heart cringed
for me to be closer
the distance was hard to fathom.

Have you forgotten
all the times you seeked for my hand
and it was right there
waiting for you to clasp it.

Have you forgotten
all those times you glanced at me
and we exchanged smiles
reassuring that this love was to last forever.

Have you forgotten
every time that i chose you
giving up on everything
that once was mine.

Have you forgotten
all those times when you could count on none
but i was always around standing firm
while you wept your way through those dreary nights.

Yes, you don't remember now,
all your promises, all our memories
all my words, even my tears
more importantly my love, which
miserably still stands alone
deserted in a lone land

Shut those lids,
Feel the pain beneath
The dark curtains
What do you see?
A heart pounding with memories.

Breathe in the subtle,
Love was so wild
Smiles are fading
How do you feel?
Breathless but alive.

Teary eyed,
Glued to your feet
The unforgettable touch
What do you regret?
This wasn't how it ends..

Hold on, don't go,
You could hear the cries
Of a summer fling
What do you wish?
Rewind and hold you tight.

Well the answer to it, I don't want to justify myself, but yeah; this long so called break from my blog, was because August started off with my college kick starting. New year, different classroom, but the old classmates. It was not just about these sweet changes. Tests, exams, higher aims, priorities kept me busy all through these past three to four months. Out of all, hardest was the month of September. It took me a lot of time to actually get in sink with all what happened.

I don't miss you
because when I watch the rain
they fall from the seventh heaven
in a voice which is yours


I don't miss you
because when I look across the golden sky
the horizons shine
with a light of yours


I don't miss you
because when I sit alone
where the darkness fences me
what engulfs me is your arms


I don't miss you
because when I'm broken inside
with tears in my eyes
what rolls down my cheeks is your finger


I don't miss you
because when I walk by
under the  bright sunlight
what embraces me is your shadow


I don't miss you
because when I lie slaked
under the night sky
I find that the brightest star is you

What do you do when your expectations are shattered ? In some cases not even expectations but promises which people around you , made to you , when you did not even ask for them.

Promises are very powerful things, and its very rightly said never make one when angry or too happy.

 When something is promised to you/assured to you , your brain starts creating impulses in it , creating new neural circuits and blah blah , in short you start THINKING about that particular thing , Thinking is getting indulged and getting indulged is getting emotionally attached , and there's where the problems begin.

Imagine you have been promised something , and after a long time , the promise is turned down.
.
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You have adequate questions to ask , to contradict , bring down their point of view etc BUT YOU DON'T ! because a sadness takes over , an emotional aura surrounds you , you are heartbroken .
If you are an aggressive person , there's an urge to weigh the person against you with questions in high tones , if you are emotional - you cry . and MOST IMPORTANTLY even if you are strong , you shatter.


After this stage there are two things that can happen  , either you loose a  part of your love for that person
OR , you stay positive and strong and let the emotional aura surrounding you go.

IN BOTH THE CASES,
There creates a broken stair your in relationship staircase.

No matter how many times you pass the staircase , you have to skip that step, ignore those memories , ignore those situation , not let them overcome you. But if in any case you are not strong enough to skip the step . you'll get stuck , or you'll FALL, getting injured , emotionally.

I have something to say to both , the promise maker  and the one to who is promised.
To the promise maker- My friend i know circumstances have been harsh or somethings made you act so , but if you've made a promise just before plainly saying no , TRY TO FULFILL IT!
There's no harm in trying , at-least you tried! The one you promised to will understand that you tried , and is the best explanation you can give to yourself!
Because , once a promise is broken --> A Broken stair is created and you now know its consequences.

To the one who was promised : It's okay friend , life is not always as you expect it to be . If the person is constantly breaking promises , things will be tough , and you'll have to get tougher , believe me it seems and feels hard in the beginning , but as you grow you'll love yourselves to be able to handle such situations .
but if not and its occasional flush those memories , try indulging in some hobby for the  time span , music is the food to our souls - use it. Always most importantly , remember one thing in your future relationship - ALWAYS SKIP THAT BROKEN STAIR .
   

                                 रहिमन धागा प्रेम का, मत तोड़ो चटकाय।

                         टूटे से फिर ना जुड़े, जुड़े गाँठ परि जाय॥      

Meaning : Rahim says, don’t allow the delicate thread of love between people to snap. If it breaks once, it cannot be mended, even if you mend it there will be a knot in it, which means there will always be some awkwardness in the relationship.

Have a good day ahead , loads of love, happiness and healing energies to you :)